I was debating if I should write this or not.
4 years after working with them.
After coming back from America
I got introduced and went to the 2nd Tour audition, honestly without even knowing who they were.And that was “Tohoshinki”
I learned a lot during the TOUR.
It took me 4 years to remember their name.
I was always wanting to go back to America.
But because I worked with them it gave me a reason to stay in Japan and I also felt proud of it.
My family came to watch me on stage for the first time
The dancers were dancer family.
SONNY-san, YU-KI-san, GEN-san, RYO-san, and 50
Many scenes that I still remember
I seriously love them all
I really appreciate Avex’s female staffs gathering us
Thinking and working hard for everyone in the tour and supporting us then caring for themselves.
Laughing a lot, talking, would sometimes fight and cry.
Dancing together and I appreciate her working hard.
I was able to meet people that I would’ve never met if it wasn’t for them.
Was I able to do something for my family?
The more I write my tears wont stop.
I’ve never heard them complain even once
We laughed a lot
As the leader he was always steady
He was always serious at dancing and he talked to us the most
I really loved Yunho’s part after the Fake and Break
For Summer Dream we played a lot of rock paper scissors
I was winning! *laughs*
It took me 4 years to remember his name.
He’s the most serious and really kind.
But on stage hes really different from the usual him and it was fun to watch.
In the waiting room he reads a book.
He does everything seriously
I still remember Changmin’s smile in SKY.
Since everyone said he was responsible he probably thought he had to be responsible.
But he really was responsible
I want Changmin to be himself in front of his family!
who am I to say that! *laughs*
He probably got lonely the most?
He was the most to give eye contact while singing
With his beautiful voice he always attracted all of us
When I came back from getting injured he was the first one to yell from the stage
When Junsu got hurt he was the first to run to him and was worried the most
He really is kind
Jaejoong is deep
Hes usually dumb?
but when hes on stage he shows his charismatic side
With his oyaji-gag I seriously felt awkward
Sobbed listening to him sing
Watching him dance made my excitement to the MAX
When I picked Jusu’s Rainy Night for my solo he was the most to be excited
and he asked me in front of everyone Ko-san what do you want?
Ithought he was so dumb! *laughs*
but after that when noone was there he said Ko-san that was unexpected
and it’s different from everyone so it’s really good
he told me seriously that mine was the best
but since he told me so seriously i felt uncomfortable so
I remember I said I’ll change the song and said I don’t want Jusu’s song, because I was shy
At that time I appreciate that I was able to dance on a wonderful stage with the wonderful song
When he got injured I cried
He really does have a charismatic side
I think we were the closest
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I cant make it to words
When we spin the towels we’d compete and sometime not high-five
Everyone seems to be mistaken but it’s not Yoochun that didnt high-five me
it’s me that didn’t high-five him
it’s something I can say now! *laughs*
We played around a lot
When we were filming for a MV
he told me what is Ko-san doing until everyone is here
and that he said we don’t need Ko-san
I cracked up~
He’s an artist but I said you stupid
During the performance we had fun together
When it was Yoochun’s solo I remember being so nervous
It was a fun time
I think hes the most emotional and matches a concert the most.
There is so much memories with them that I cant even start writing.
There’s a lot written on the media but no one knows if its true or not
I wont believe it
what the media magazines are writing about
I thought a lot
Since I have so many memories it wasn’t easy to write
To me this blog entry is also my heart
When their activity pause news went out to the world
I had complicated feelings
I got an e-mail from someone in Avex
but there’s nothing I can do
Everyone that supported me, family, friends, and everyone
I really appreciate it to the point I cant make it to words
I have a lot of memories and I learned a lot by meeting them
and received many things.
But I won’t end here
I’ll grow more
for my mother
If I work hard I might be able to work with them again
It may be solo
I don’t know how I’ll work with them again
but it doesn’t matter how, I seriously want to work with them again
I will for sure achieve it
My feelings wont change
I’ll probably love them until I die
I’ll probably listen to their songs until I die
Thank you for everything
and please support me from on now too.
This is my all my feelings right now
source: kosan blog
trans by: Rieko@sharingyoochun
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